Feeling Good?

I've had a rough couple of days. I feel anxious. Thursday night I decided to calm that feeling by joining facebook and finding friends I haven't spoken to in a while. That has helped some.
But what about later tonight? And tomorrow? What if I don't feel better? How do make myself feel better?

Earlier this week, I was feeling good. I went to a friend's birthday celebration and for the first time since I left DC, I felt like an absolutely free human being, like I could be myself and be happy at the same time. The problem is that I don't know how to create that feeling when I want to. So I'm just at the will of brain chemicals, apparently.

There is thin silver lining, though. I got some cosmetics day before yesterday. Yayyyyyy! From MAC: another Moonbathe lipglass (mine from the summer is just about gone, and it was just perfect perfect perfect) and Smut eyeshadow. From Ulta: L'Oreal Voluminous eyeliner, HIP Shocking Shadow Pigment in Intrepid (looks like the result of a mating between MAC's Club eyeshadow and Blue Brown pigment), HIP Brilliant Shine Lipgloss in Enticing, NYX lip pencil in Auburn, and Sally Hansen Salon Nail Lacquer in Baroque Bronze.